Final entry

This is my final entry for 20 journal entries. I have to admit that this was my least favorite English assignment. Why? well if you couldn't tell I did this at the very last minute. I was so focused on other stuff that I totally forgot about the journal entries. I did get the passion to start blogging again . Blogging again well be like my therapy and just to express my feelings and emotions.

Teacher

If you ask anyone they would be shocked that I want to be a teacher. Why ? Well I am not the kind of smiling happy person and I talk to kids like a equal sometimes. But when I am around kids I just light up. When I was in high school I took a child development class just so I didn;t have to take spanish class. In child development I grew to like being around kids and I felt good teaching them different lessons. I decided to go back to school last year and the only degree that made sense to me was early childhood education. Seeing a child as he learns new things about the world is the best feeling in the world.

2013

As the year comes to the end I have started to think about 2013. I am considering taking more classes during the summer because this it is taking me forever to finish school. I am also gonna try and get into better shape and push myself more next year. Another thing I have been thinking about is getting a condo. I am tired of living in a apartment.  2013 will be a good year for me, I just need to stay focus and believe I could do it.

Family

As I get older I realized I am not the family kind of person. I mean I love my family , but we weren't close when I was growing up. We never really celebrated holidays or birthdays ,we hardly call each other on those days. I know it can start to change if I make a effort , but I really don't think it would make a difference. I made a promise to myself that if I have kids that I would do the total opposite of my childhood. I will have real relationships with my children.

London

This year my big vacation was a trip to London to visit my friends. I literally planned this trip in a month. I had to get some money from my 401K and I needed to get my passport and quick. I picked the last two weeks in August and I didn't even know that I was going to go when the olympics were there. I got everything I needed and I was off. I have to say it was the most amazing vacation I have ever had. The culture , food, sites. The weather was perfect, despite what people say it was not that cloudy to me. Also the public transportation was on point. Leaving was very hard for me, but I plan to go back next year.

New York

I love New York , it has to be one of the best citys in the world. The first time I went was a few years ago. I was going to see Madonna and the closet tour stop was New York so me and some friends went up. I just remember being in awe, I mean it was the place I have seen in movies and TV and I was there. I jsut remember seeing all the sites and I was loving every moment in the city. After that I started dating someone up there and I traveled back and forth for awhile. I need to make another trip there soon.

San Francisco

I have been to San Francisco  about 4 times. I believe San Fran. has been one of my favorite trips to ever go. San Francisco was also the first place I flew too. The area is so nice and there is something to do every day. I remember going to Fishermans wharf and taking a boat to Alcatraz. That was a good tour seeing the old cells. the next year I took a bus tour around the city and saw where they shot a lot of movies like The Rock. Another attraction was Skywalker Ranch, where they keep all the Star Wars memoerablia.

Christmas

I am not a huge fan of Christmas. I don't totally hate the holiday, it is just I never had good memories of it. Growing up I never had a real Christmas. We were sometimes hard up for money, but then there were times we could have a real holiday.  My mom came up with many reasons why I couldn"t get presents , like my birthday was too close to the holiday or maybe next year. We hardly had any decorations. Still to this day i have never decorated any place for Christmas.

seattle

I just got back from my trip to Seattle. It was a nice visit with Bill and his boyfriend. I loved my hotel, it was right in downtown and very spaceious. I will admit I am a fan of big cities. I never  really was a beach person. Seattle this time around was kind of bittersweet. I realized that if I ever do move , it wouldn't be to Seattle. I love the area, but the weather is hard to handle. Also I feel like there isn't much to do but go into different neighborhoods.

Bill

I am in Seattle visiting my best friend Bill . This is not the first time I have visited Seattle I was here back in March and I enjoyed it. I needed some time away from work so I decided to visit Bill. I have known Bill for a few years, we use to work together at a club and then we moved in together. He is one of the few people in my life that I call a friend. He accepts me for who I am and doesn't judge me . I miss him a lot since he moved to Seattle last year , but I am happy he is enjoying life here.

Traveling

I am one of the rare people that like to travel. Since I started flying a few years ago and I enjoy airports. But recently I had some bad experiences , coming back from London and going to Seattle . When I was coming back from London that was horrible flight , the person in front of me reclined her seat all the way back and I couldn't even watched the tv. And the flight to Seattle people brought their pets on the plane. If you are going to travel be considerate of others , why bring a barking dog on a plane . Also don't recline your seat it is rude to the person behind you.

Healthy

This year I decided to get healthy. Back in May I decided to get healthy and control my weight. I decided to get a trainer and work out everyday . Since then I have lost 30 something pounds and I gave up a lot of  bad food, and that was the hardest part. I try and go to the gym at least 6 days of week , though being in school makes it hard.  Recently I got bored with my workout so I decided to do some yoga classes. Yoga is really hard and intense but I need a challenge in my workout.

English

Well we are approaching the end of the semester and I survived English class. I will be honest I was scared going into that class, and I feel pretty good about the class. I will be the first to admit I have not given my full potential in my essays. I think out the topics and I write it out , but I still know I didn't do my best.  I know I should let people read my stuff but I hate when people look at my work other than the teacher. I promise myself when I take English 2 that I will put my best effort in that class.

Work pt 2

I am on the verge of a mental breakdown. My job has been really working my last nerve. I just hate the fact I work with a company that doesn't respect their workers. I bust my ass everyday and come in while others don't work , but they keep them employed here. So I decided to just stop being a overachiever because my work doesn''t get noticed. I just feel like a flunkie at work.

ECE

Well I am dreading taking my early childhood teacher again next semester. Professor Lewis is a nice person and she knows what she is talking about . but her teaching is very sporadic. She gives us a topic in class and then changes it up midway. Also she really doesn't enforce reading the textbook and it puts us behind. I am dreading that she will stick with the group work next semseter. I need structure from a teacher.

Work

I am getting to the point at my job where I just want to quit and just leave. Since my department got outsourced, we have hated every moment at being with this company. There has been many issues with this company like our paychecks,vacation time , and overtime. I know I should be grateful to have a job , but it's hard when you work for a company that doesn't respect their workers. I am strongly thinking about just leaving and moving out the area.

Thanksgiving

This week was Thanksgiving and like usual I just chilled with friends,but this time we went out to a restaurant. The food was very good I just wished we didn't eat that early LOL . We ate at like 12:30 and I was hungry again by like 4.  Other than that it was good to be with friends and have good drinks. The thing about the holiday is when people post on Facebook about what they are thankful for and it is annoying. Why ?? Why do you have to wait till a holiday to say what you are thankful for. You can do it any day of the week or any time during the year. Don't wait for holiday to make you realize what you are thankful for.

English

I wish I was in a real university sometimes. I feel like majority of the student body don't take school seriously. I was in English and we had to give oral presentations and most of the class didn't even present !!! I mean it is not that hard to go up and talk about a book you just read. I admit I was a average student in school, I was barely getting by. I just wish I went to a school where the students are excited about learning.

School.

I am trying to do better in school this year than last year. Even though I got good grades last year I feel that if I am not taking enough classes I am failing. Yes I know that is weird, but I wish CCDC offered enough night classes for me to take. I love my English class which is weird ,because I hate structured writing. I am more of a freestyle and just type person. The really difficult class for me is my History and Philoisphy of Early Childhood Education, I feel like I am behind in that class even though I am not. I just need to do some observations on a child , but the main campus never got back to my professor about me observing their head start. Well right now I am gonna spend the next week catching up on my reading for class.

32

It's been a full week since I turned 32 and a lot has been on my mind. I guess everyone thinks when they have a birthday probably the milestone ages like 21,30 and so on. For me I just have been trying to see where I want my life to be in the next couple of years. I want to hopefully be done with school in two years, but if they don't offer enough classes I will be in school for a long time. I also want to be a teacher so badly, but I still have fears like if I will be up to standards of whatever school I apply for. Another thing I have been thinking about is Do I want to stay in this area ?? I have always wanted to move to San Francisco, and then until this year I thought about Seattle . One of my best friends live in Seattle and he loves its there and he is always telling me I should move there.  I just need to figure something out soon. I need to have a set goal for the next year.